Being told off by someone who you found inspiring.

I wasn't a close friend of this person in question nor did I know them personally in any way and I was just another fan in their eyes, but ever since yesterday afternoon, I have felt down in the fucking dumps. This person was a voice actress I was a big fan of whom I got into because of a character they played that I was a big fan of before I even cared to find out who the voice actress who played her was. And I did something in their Discord server that she was the owner of that was an accident that I didn't do on purpose. And I tried to apologize for it and one of her staff members on behalf of her said that she told me that I wasn't getting another chance and that it was the "700th time" I didn't notice something as if all I did was annoy her or I caused trouble regularly. And all the admin who told me this on her behalf said was that the damage was already done and that all they can do is hope for the best for me in other communities. And now because I was such a big fan of the character she played as well as other characters she played that I discovered upon finding out who she was, I don't know if I can look at this characters in the same way anymore. Because whenever I hear their voice let alone see this character it will just remind me of how they told me off and scolded me over a misunderstanding that I tried to apologize for and resolve that they she refused to hear me out on. I feel as if certain people just give me a ton of crap over things that are either no big deal or things that could easily be resolved. I feel so fucking hopeless! The whole month of December was a letdown as it is. Nothing went as planned, especially the holidays, and being that this is the final days of the month, it feels like this is the rotten cherry on top and it is just foreshadowing my prediction based on what my ex girlfriend told me in 2010 or 2011 about how I have a rough patch on my life every 7 years, and what a pain in the ass 2024 will be. Because her predictions were surprisingly accurate. As 2017 which will have been 7 years ago on January 1st was rough and stressful and 7 years before 2017 was 2010, which was also stressful. I feel so hopeless! Like the odds are always against me 24/7. I can't focus on anything else now. Like I said, I didn't know them personally and wasn't a close personal friend and just another fan to them, but still, their words hit me hard.